I feel an anxiousness to complete things. Not the bad kind of anxiety… more like an adrenaline rush while waiting for the starter pistol.
I’m now constantly aware of a great desire to move forward, far enough to find myself in new surroundings.
I’ve had certain items on my “To Do” list for years. I want to be done with them. I feel they keep me anchored to goals that I’m not sure are still relevant to who I am today.
As I continue reading The Artist’s Way, I keep discovering things about myself.
Week 3’s epiphany happened during an assignment to make a list of 5 people I admire and 5 people I secretly admire. Which traits in particular do I look up to?
I wonder, was the “secretly admire” list a trick? After jotting down the names, I couldn’t decide if it’s people I admire… or envy.
If I was asked to list 5 people I envy, I would have quickly lied and said, “Oh, gosh, no, I don’t envy anyone.”
The secret admiration approach nudged me to be honest. (I’m not sure if Julia meant this to happen, or if it’s my interpretation. Either way, it was helpful.)
Looking over the traits of people on both lists, I realized that I admire people who are:
The fantastic thing is that 4 out of 5 can be a chain of “actionable items.”
This recipe of fabulousness is within my reach.
Starting now, I can actively focus on developing these traits that I admire in other people. Who knows, maybe it will get rid of my secret envy.
The remaining thoughts from the week that I loved are the following:
“Anger is a map. Anger shows us what our boundaries are. […] Anger is meant to be acted upon. It’s not meant to be acted out.”
As somebody that always cringes away from conflict, this perspective is a game changer. Conflict is not all bad. On the contrary, it can lead to a much better outcome. Why avoid a chance to improve myself, my relationships, and surroundings?
“Art matures spasmodically and requires ugly-duckling growth stages.”
Hehe! I have gigabytes of proof of this.
“Art brings healing. But before a wound can heal, it must be seen.”
So, bring Art into the open. No band-aids. Let it breathe. It will heal faster.
Thanks for reading,
PS: Talent is subjective, and I’m still trying to determine if you can nurture it, or if you’re born with a predetermined amount and can only build skills around it. What are your thoughts on this? I’d appreciate any insight.